parent

....got a letter in the mail
I am now a member of
the Raleigh Park PTO
whether I want to be or not
do I have to start organizing
bake sales.......????

dilemma

I knew this day
was coming
a day of
paths crossing
not sure I'm
ready
perhaps
I can put it off
delay
the inevitable

lines

he wasn't quite one
he would line up cars
hotwheels
like a parking lot
then drive them
from one end of the table
to the other
perfect rows
almost
anal
it seems natural
that he's progressed
to army men
knights
firefighters
cops
lining them up
moving the troops

I still giggle at his likeness
to me

bits

you
were in my dream
last night
or
early this morning
everything tends to blur
when I'm tired

missing you today

oh......don't cut your hair

unknown

I seem to have many in my life
strangers
we develop relationships
I'm told
wanted or not
they exist
always
at an arm's length
safer that way

thursday

what a difference
a week
makes
this morning
I got the word

GROSS

no more
walking around
naked

synthetic

hormone
highs & lows
constant
up & down
lather
rinse
repeat

anonymous

you read my words
my thoughts
then leave your own
puzzling
one
many
unknown......all of you

friday

"MOM.........you look good!"
he shouted across the room

caught off-guard

I couldn't have asked
for a better way
to start my day

distance

this
is getting hard
this.....distance
i can type
arbitrary
words
yet
i can't tell you
how i feel

i was taught well

zen

religious meditation

enlightenment
by direct intuition
through meditation

Om
enlighten me
Om
meditate me
Om

I am zen

swim

a group of 8 & unders
he's not even 6
25 free
such a nice smooth stroke
effortless
like his dad
25 back
all the way to the wall buddy
turned over at the flags
disqualified
still......beautiful stroke
50 free
2 lengths
don't stop at the wall
keep going
another entry in his book of firsts
this former swimmer's wet dream

sliding

Here I am
doing it again
crying.
Stress?
Hormones?
Tired?
Could be
all of the above.
Nah.....
just the usual
disappointment
in myself.