I am not some affected woman going on about imaginary woes. These hurts...... are real to me. I hope to one day give them up.

closed guarded cold shut hard inaccessible vulnerable...... weakness

myself others everyone all the time I look forward to the day they end

they say laughter is the best medicine his......is my cure-all the hint of a tickle uncontrollable A smile... the crinkle of an eye giggles ...

Having my son see me cry is a humiliating experience. I'm getting used to it.

He answered with honesty, can't fault him for that. It wasn't the answer I wanted. Chasing. Always.......chasing.

this conversation is over done no longer will I be pushed cajoled no more this time, I'm ending it now

I speak with no voice scream with no sound . On and on I go never once being heard . Listen............. Did you hear it? The sound of...

Thank you......for reminding me of all that I miss out on. As if I didn't already know. I appreciate the gesture. Maybe one day I ca...

done with this life ready to move on let it go nothing you can do will change things I quit long ago

Meddling so-called friends Kiss my ass Find some other fuck to pass judgement on

I sat with her Silent Unable to speak Staring at the coals I want.... Embarrassed I resort to casual banter

Thoughts come & go Sometimes......I remember to write them down Record Read Delete Always........self edit.

she swallows all emotion. smiling at her self-control slowly building she pushes it back down burying it deep

Steadfast and strong. Stay out. Stay out. Stay out. She kicks & screams & hits & cries. Imaginary obstacles. A smile..........b...

His laughter. Giggles galore. I capture it.........in my mental bank. I draw upon it often. Often..... I miss him.

highs and lows never ending. one day I'd like to get off.

Standing tall. Cool. Collected. Nonchalant. So composed. I see you. In all of your nakedness...... I see you.

Two. A front for all that you are. Stop telling me otherwise. I see it. I've seen it. I'll continue to see it. No more. Get on wit...

deeply inhaling the water fills my lungs. cool. calming. cleansing.