awake

it's late
a cool breeze just kicked up
breathing
feels good on my brain

backside

I have a new
woman
in my life
she's forcing me
to go right
I think
I like her

butterflies...

...filled my line-up
yesterday
not your usual
sea fare
simply
beautiful

placid

still water
can be deceiving
the calm exterior
often rages
underneath

bully

harassing
poking
cajoling
can't stop
can you?
congratulations
you've accomplished
what you set out to do
I'm responding

find a new hobby

terse

never offer
more information
than
required
I can do that

blah blah blah

is it just me?
my whole life
I've felt
like an idiot
as if
I talk
to walls
if these walls could talk...
I imagine
they would tell me
to shut the fuck up.

overdrive

how do I ease
my racing mind
slow it down
take it out of overdrive
too many thoughts
unanswered
too many ideas
unheard
Billie
Sarah
Etta
offer no help

cleansing

spent
a couple hours
in the water
yesterday
waves were fun
water was warm
smiles & laughter
in the lineup
all the tears
shed
the previous day
were washed away
with
one wave

Blue

ever have one of those days?
the kind of day
where only
Miles Davis
and a bottle of red
will suffice....

metastatic

the room was
emotionally charged
to say the least
so many
beautiful
women
thriving

red

going to a luncheon
today
for breastcancer
survivors
Red's mother
is one of those
survivors
Red worries
that her own beautiful
double d's
will one day be gone
I don't think
she believes me when
I tell her
breasts
don't make her
beautiful

?

emotionally exhausted
I let the little things
get to me
embarrassing
really

absent

haven't been here
in awhile
a lot going on
beginnings
endings
life

parent

....got a letter in the mail
I am now a member of
the Raleigh Park PTO
whether I want to be or not
do I have to start organizing
bake sales.......????

dilemma

I knew this day
was coming
a day of
paths crossing
not sure I'm
ready
perhaps
I can put it off
delay
the inevitable

lines

he wasn't quite one
he would line up cars
hotwheels
like a parking lot
then drive them
from one end of the table
to the other
perfect rows
almost
anal
it seems natural
that he's progressed
to army men
knights
firefighters
cops
lining them up
moving the troops

I still giggle at his likeness
to me

bits

you
were in my dream
last night
or
early this morning
everything tends to blur
when I'm tired

missing you today

oh......don't cut your hair

unknown

I seem to have many in my life
strangers
we develop relationships
I'm told
wanted or not
they exist
always
at an arm's length
safer that way

thursday

what a difference
a week
makes
this morning
I got the word

GROSS

no more
walking around
naked